Small little acts of kindess

One of my favorite ways to give back to the world is doing random acts of kindness. Last month on my birthday I spent the day giving back. I did around 21 acts of kindness. From leaving a bouquet of flowers on someones car to paying for someones lunch in the drive through. It love doing these random acts of kindness. I challenge you to do random acts of kindness for people. Of course, you don’t have to spend a day doing it like I did, but just doing them occasionally is quite fulfilling. God says to “love thy neighbor”. By completing random acts of kindness, you are able to definitely love your neighbor. I attached some pictures from my day of giving to the community. I try to complete random acts of kindness throughout the year to make a difference. Try to┬áslow down your routine and look for ways to make a difference. Never stop making a difference. ­čÖé

Infertility

Infertility is a topic that no one likes to talk about. More people struggle with infertility than most know. Infertility is usually not discussed and people struggle with it inside, but don’t tell those around them. I am not sure why we keep this topic so quiet. We do the same with anxiety and depression, which many struggle with, but no one likes to discuss they have these issues.

Infertility makes you emotionally and physically exhausted. Just one little thing can upset you. For instance, people announcing they are pregnant on facebook or in conversation is so challenging for someone dealing with infertility. You are so proud of them, but you just wish you could also be pregnant. You wish…you could have the pleasure of announcing you are pregnant. You wish you could go to the OB and see a ultrasound of your baby’s heart beating. You aren’t mad that person is pregnant by any means, you just want to share that same joy.

Taking fertility medications and nothing happening is another struggle. Why isn’t the medication working? Why am I not getting pregnant? Will we ever get pregnant? Should we just give up? There are so many questions that come to mind. Why are so many people able to accidentally get pregnant and we can’t? Where is God in all of this struggle?

After going to Africa and seeing so many orphans, I also wonder about adoption. I think about all the kids needing homes and if adoptions is Gods plan. I wonder if it is wrong to take fertility medications when there are kids needing a supportive family.

Infertility presents a complex challenge in so many lives. What I have learned in this battle, is that it is a crossroad, but God has a plan. He might bless us with a child naturally or he might bless us with a child through adoption. We have to be patient and wait for God to lay out his plan. Being patient is NOT easy for me. I just want to know what is going to happen right now. I must trust though that God will give us a baby when he is ready. I pray he will wrap his arms around me and guide me through this challenging time.

I listened to a song “I have this hope” by Tenth Avenue North and the words really spoke to me.

Here are the lyrics:

As I walk this great unknown
Questions come and questions go
Was there purpose for the pain?
Did I cry these tears in vain?
I don’t want to live in fear
I want to trust that You are near
Trust Your grace can be seen
In both triumph and tragedy
I have this hope
In the depth of my soul
In the flood or the fire
You’re with me and You won’t let go
But sometimes my faith feels thin
Like the night will never end
Will You catch every tear
Or will You just leave me here?
But I have this hope
In the depth of my soul
In the flood or the fire
You’re with me and You won’t let go
So, whatever happens I will not be afraid
Cause You are closer than this breath that I take
You calm the storm when I hear You call my name
I still believe that one day I’ll see Your face
Infertility is so hard, but I will trust in God’s plan and wait. I will have hope and cling on God when my faith is low. I will not let this struggle consume me. I know God will calm the storm and bless us with a baby one way or another. If you are struggling with infertility or another crossroad, trust in God’s plan and remember everything is possible with God. (Matthew 19:26).

Letter to 37 year old me

In ten years, I will be 37!! Every year on this world is a blessing. I just thought I’d write a letter to my 37 year old self. 

Dear 37 year old Allison,

Where have the years gone? As I sit here writing this (as a 27 year old) I want you to remember a few things: always be kind, strive for happiness, never stop smiling, and keep reaching for your goals. You are so incredibly loved by God and he has the best plans for you. Have you been back to Africa? If so, did it touch your soul? How often do you think and pray about Beatrice? I hope you get to see her again one day. 

Since I anticipate you will have children, how are they? Remember to teach them to love others and be happy. Teach them to be positive and hard workers. I know you will be a great mom. I am sure it will be trying and exhausting, but you can do it. 

How is being a nurse/nurse practitioner? Are you making a difference in your patients lives? Never stop sharing your heart with your patients. You are so caring and your patients probably love you. 

How’s Gods creation? I hope you are getting outside and really enjoying it. 

How are your parents? Cody? Your brothers? Remember to cherish every moment with them. 

Never give up, Allison. Keep sharing your love and kindness with everyone around you.

Love,

27 year old Allison 

Disconnect

Turn your phone off. 

Don’t look at Facebook, instagram, twitter or snapchat for a little bit. 

Disconnect. 

We are always so attached to our phones and computers that we get distracted. 

We forget to spend time with God. We forget to pray. We forget to ask for forgiveness. 

We forget. 

I sat at a traffic light today and the guy in the Car next to me was texting or doing something on his phone. I have found myself looking at my phone when stopped at a traffic light. First off this isn’t safe. Second off, why are we so attached to the internet and social media? Why is it so addicting? Do we really need to always be on our phones? Do we always have to snap or post a picture of what we did today or even what we ate? 

The moments we spend on our phones, are missing out. We are missing out on time with God. We are missing out on seeing his beautiful creation. We are missing out on conversations with those around us. 

Disconnect. 

Take time  each day when you aren’t on your phone or computer or tablet. God is there for you and he can’t always get to you when you are on your phone snapping or facebooking. 

Powering off…..

Peace and love

There is so much hate these days. It is just all over our society including the internet. I log into Facebook and I see all these posts that include unhappiness and hate. It saddens me. 

Why do we have so much hatred? Why do we anger so easily? Why can’t we just be happy? Why don’t we love more? 

This election has caused such an uproar in our nation and it shouldn’t. Everyone is talking about how much hate they have and how they can’t live on. Why???? Don’t let one election define your happiness. Don’t let the sin of this world bring you down. Instead use it as an opportunity to encorproate more love into the world.

Be kind.

Love your neighbor no matter what color, religion or sexual orientation. 

Be happy. do what makes you happy and use this happiness to make others smile. 

Don’t worry about the sin of the world so much that it makes you HATE everything. 

Make a life for yourself that you love. Get off social media and do what makes you smile. 

Be a role model to those around you. 

Choose love everyday. Do small acts of kindness whenever you can. Take flowers to your sick friend, send letters to tell your family you miss them, volunteer at a homeless shelter, etc.

Don’t let the corruption of the world destroy you. It’s not worth it. 

Try to Focus on today. Not yesterday or tomorrow. 

Be who you are and don’t look back. 

Remember you are loved. You are not forgotten. God never forgets his children. 

Gods masterpiece 

Beauty. 

God created beauty. 

Sometimes I overlook it. 

Sometimes I don’t even take a second to acknowledge it. 

For one thing, the fact that God makes sunshines and sunsets so beautiful, he must be pretty powerful. I love how every sunset and sunrise is different. I love the different colors in the sky. Take time in your days to sit and notice Gods beautiful creations. I sometimes get so overwhelmed with my worldly problems that I forget to sit down and thank God. I encourage you to stop your busy routine and pray. Maybe do it while watching a sunset or sunrise. Give a moment of you day to the amazing God that created it. 

Happiness

Sometimes we forget to take time and really think about what makes us happy. I get busy worrying about life and forget to focus on happiness. I am challenging myself to think about what makes me happy in life. 

People that make me happy: my wonderful husband, Cody. My family (mom, dad, siblings, grandma, cousins, in-laws). My friends. And most importantly, God. 

Places that make me happy: anywhere in the woods, water (lakes, oceans, rivers), Birmingham, horse farms, rolling hills on back country roads, Africa.

Activities/things that make me happy: running, laughing, taking care of people as a nurse, being around the ones I love, volunteering, animals, music. 

It’s important to sit down and think about who, where and what makes you happy. I have been focusing lately on living life to the fullest and thinking about happiness really helps. Remember to keep those that are loyal and kind close to you. Laugh, love, and be happy. Never let anything ruin your happiness.  

3rd grade

I remember only certain details from elementary school, but I definitely remember third grade. My best friends were Jessica and Breanne. I brought my pet turtle, Bingo in for show and tell. For school pictures, we took them with Beanie Babies. I loved lemon warheads. I also remember that my third grade teacher taught me an important lesson. She called me stupid. Not to my face directly, but she told my mom I was not smart and I would not succeed. 

It’s always been my motivation. I’ve always remember that I have come so far since being called “stupid 3rd grader”. She should have never said such hurtful comments about me, but I’m honestly glad she did. It’s really pushed me and made me so much stronger. 

Sometimes I just wish my third grade teacher could see me now. I would tell her that I’m smart and confident. I did not let her hurtful words hold me back, but instead I let them inspire me. I might not be the quickest learner, but I am a driven hard worker. I will never stop pushing forward and reaching my goals. In just a short 11 months, I graduate from nurse practitioner school. From a stupid 3rd grader to a doctorate graduate, wow I’ve come a far way! 

I hope this can encourage you when you are feeling unmotivated or someone says a hurtful comment about you. Don’t let the hard situation hold you back from reaching your goals, but instead let it push you forward. Let it inspire you and eventually you will be able to look back and see how far you’ve come. 

Trees

There are many different kinds of trees. Oak, evergreen, pine and so on. I feel like all trees are neat. Some are prettier than others. Some are skinny while some are bigger. They are all trees and they are all beautiful in there own little way. 

Trees are a lot like people. We are all different but no matter our flaws we are all beautiful. As flawed humans, we sometimes are quick to judge others by their looks, actions or words. I have worked lately to take time to really understand others and try to hold any judgements I may have. Next time you see yourself starting to judge others, remember people are like trees and although someone might be  different than you they are still beautiful. Take the time to find the beauty in those around you! 

Pessimistic Pansy

I’ve always been a positive person. Until recently. When I was younger I always saw the cup half full. I had a hard time understanding how others were so pessimistic. I was surrounded by some pessimists at a young age, so I focused on encouraging others. 

As I became older and even more ambitious, I set high goals for myself. I decided I would take on many roles and tasks. I stayed positive until recently. 

I hit rock bottom. 

Full time nurse. Full time doctoral student. Wife. Trying to be a good friend and family member. Of course and trying to maintain a strong relationship with God. I got tangled in a ginormous mess. I became slightly depressed, extremely anxious and frankly a pessimistic pansy. How would I get everything done? Why were things so hard? Why did I take on so much responsibility? Should I just give up? Did I really want to be a nurse practitioner? Why did it all have to be so hard? So many why questions. I became so stressed and pessimistic that I wasn’t my smiley self. I just kind of lived life in a trance. I forgot my motto about being positive and encouraging others. 

How do I get out of this funk?

First, realizing I’m in a funk and making the effort to change. I also asked myself what changes I can make to be less stressed. What can I do to prioritize my time better? Making lists always helps. Also, asking Those around me for help. Most importantly, relying on God. I definitely can’t do it without him. I will change. I will not be overly stressed. I will be positive. I will continue to encourage those around me because that’s what makes me happy. 

Don’t give up on your dreams. 

Keep on keeping on. 

Don’t let being a pessimistic pansy get in the way of your ambitions.